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Extraction Summary
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Document Information
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Personal essay / narrative account (included in house oversight committee investigation files)
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Summary
This document appears to be a page from a personal essay, blog post, or report written by an American sex/HIV educator working in Africa. The text reflects on the psychological and social barriers to condom use, including issues of trust in relationships and erectile difficulties. It highlights the narrator's feelings of hypocrisy regarding their own past behavior compared to their professional advice. The document bears a 'HOUSE_OVERSIGHT' footer, indicating it was collected as evidence during a congressional investigation.
People (3)
| Name | Role | Context |
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| Narrator | Sex Educator / HIV Educator |
Author of the text discussing personal experiences and professional observations regarding condom use.
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| Unnamed Female Colleague | American HIV Educator |
Person the narrator chatted with about the situation in Africa.
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| Narrator's Ex | Former Partner |
Referenced in the context of the narrator failing to use condoms despite their profession.
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Organizations (1)
| Name | Type | Context |
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| House Oversight Committee |
Implied by the footer 'HOUSE_OVERSIGHT_018591', indicating this document is part of a government investigation cache.
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Relationships (2)
Chatted with another American HIV educator about the situation here in Africa.
Why didn't I use condoms with that ex?
Key Quotes (6)
""They know to use condoms," she complained, "and they have the condoms! I just don't get it!""Source
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""I agree that it's incomprehensible," I said, "but hey, I haven't always been 100% careful, and I'm a sex educator.""Source
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""That shit fucks with you.""Source
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""You gotta use 'em anyway, folks." I'm a hypocrite, but what else can I say?"Source
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""Use condoms because you can't trust anyone, not even your lover," is an ugly message to impart."Source
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"Fortunately, the solution is easy: men who have trouble with condomised penis-in-vagina sex gain a glorious opportunity to explore all the other kinds of sex!"Source
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Were we stupid? Obviously. Were we normal? Unfortunately, yes. A few months ago, I chatted with another American HIV educator about the situation here in Africa. "They know to use condoms," she complained, "and they have the condoms! I just don't get it!"
"I agree that it's incomprehensible," I said, "but hey, I haven't always been 100% careful, and I'm a sex educator."
She glanced at me, then away. "Yeah, I haven't either," she admitted. There was a gloomy pause, and then we couldn't help it -- we cracked up. "I hate love," she said when the giggles subsided. She shook her head. "That shit fucks with you."
Why didn't I use condoms with that ex? I still don't know! When you instruct people to use condoms as often as I do, you get accustomed to the arguments. I hear the same reasons we didn't use condoms -- because they don't feel as good, because they interrupt the moment, etc. etc. etc. -- I hear them, I smile and I tell the audience, "You gotta use 'em anyway, folks." I'm a hypocrite, but what else can I say?
And there are deeper-rooted objections to condoms -- objections that are both rarely stated in public, and harder to confront. One is trust, which I've been struggling with for a long time, since before I got to Africa. I don't think it's good for condom discussions to center on trust, and I wish I had more ideas about how to refocus them. "Use condoms because you can't trust anyone, not even your lover," is an ugly message to impart. Moreover, it only encourages the audience to view not using condoms as a gift, or a signifier of trust.
In America, I tend to cast it like this: "Safer sex is normal. It's the baseline. Lots of people practice it. It's an assumption. Act like it." Which, I hope, helps people simply default to safer sex without forcing direct questions about any given partner's integrity. Hopefully, it also distracts attention from seeing discarding condoms as a gift. But the truth is that condom usage isn't always an assumption even in America (witness myself and my ex). And it's less of an assumption here in Africa. How can I avoid validating the viewpoint that not using condoms is the best way to express trust?
The second deep-rooted objection -- again, both in Africa and America -- is inability to maintain an erection while using a condom. When I was younger, I used to think that guys were just whining when they claimed they couldn't keep it up with a condom, but in my old age I've determined that People Are Different (no way!): while most men deal with condoms just fine, some men genuinely can't. Since people tend to be bad at communicating about sex and especially bad at making space for conversations about non-normative male sexuality, this isn't often acknowledged. Fortunately, the solution is easy: men who have trouble with condomised penis-in-vagina sex gain a glorious opportunity to explore all the other kinds of sex!
People tend to panic when confronted with the idea of a man who can't have penetrative sex. But that's sex-negative nonsense based entirely on the stereotype of "real sex" as penis-in-vagina intercourse. The solution to loss of erection isn't to sit around awkwardly wishing you could be having penetrative sex. The solution is for both partners to start exploring with mouths, hands... and words. But teaching about this means speaking very explicitly, and it can be hard to have those conversations in a conservative society
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