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Extraction Summary
8
People
1
Organizations
1
Locations
3
Events
4
Relationships
5
Quotes
Document Information
Type:
Personal statement / memoir excerpt, submitted as evidence to a house oversight committee.
File Size:
2.2 MB
Summary
This document is a page from a personal statement or memoir detailing an anonymous narrator's sexual history and struggles with anorgasmia. The author recounts early experiences with S&M, unhelpful advice from friends, and a threesome that she found mostly 'boring -- if not distasteful'. The footer 'HOUSE_OVERSIGHT_018499' indicates this is an evidentiary document submitted to a congressional committee, but the text on this page does not mention Jeffrey Epstein or any known associates.
People (8)
| Name | Role | Context |
|---|---|---|
| Anonymous Narrator | Author |
The first-person narrator of the document, detailing her personal history and sexual experiences.
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| Teenage boyfriends | Past partners |
Engaged in S&M-like activities with the narrator in her mid-teens.
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| Unnamed friend | Friend |
Advised the narrator by sharing an anecdote about a girl who had an orgasm while tripping.
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| Narrator's father | Father |
Owned a book about making women orgasm, which the narrator found on his top shelf.
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| Unnamed male book author | Author |
Wrote a book found by the narrator, claiming he could give any girl a squirting orgasm and that men should prevent th...
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| Sexually experienced male friend | Friend |
When asked for advice, he drunkenly insisted that sleeping with him would guarantee the narrator an orgasm.
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| Lesbian female friend | Friend |
Told the narrator she had 'issues' and should sleep with a woman. Her efforts resulted in a threesome involving the n...
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| Unnamed guy | Crush / Sexual partner |
A man the narrator had a crush on, who participated in a threesome with the narrator and her lesbian friend.
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Organizations (1)
| Name | Type | Context |
|---|---|---|
| HOUSE_OVERSIGHT |
Appears in the footer of the document (HOUSE_OVERSIGHT_018499), indicating it is part of a submission to a U.S. House...
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Timeline (3 events)
Author's mid-teens
The narrator's early sexual experiences, including being tied up by teenage boyfriends.
Unspecified
Narrator
teenage boyfriends
Undated
The narrator's struggle with anorgasmia, which she considered a 'toxic secret'.
Unspecified
Narrator
Undated
The narrator's lesbian friend orchestrated a threesome.
Unspecified
Narrator
lesbian female friend
a guy the narrator had a crush on
Locations (1)
| Location | Context |
|---|---|
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Where the narrator found a book about orgasms.
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Relationships (4)
The text describes early sexual encounters with them in her 'mid-teens'.
The friend gave the narrator advice and ultimately arranged a threesome involving them both.
The narrator asked him for advice, and he responded with a drunken sexual proposition.
Narrator
→
Crush / Sexual encounter
→
A guy I had a crush on
Participated in a threesome with the narrator and her lesbian friend.
Key Quotes (5)
"It was years later that I released my need for agony, tears, bruises and blood."Source
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Quote #1
"I knew a girl... who couldn't have orgasms. Then one day she was tripping, and having sex, and she fell asleep, and when she woke up she was having an orgasm."Source
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Quote #2
"Anytime you want... I'll give you an orgasm. Guaranteed!"Source
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Quote #3
"Worse was my lesbian female friend who declared that I had "issues." She said that I ought to sleep with a woman."Source
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Quote #4
"Her campaign to get me to sleep with her ended in a threesome with a guy I had a crush on. I liked bits of that evening, but most of it was boring -- if not distasteful."Source
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Quote #5
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positive and feminist messages about sex, my own sexuality remained invisible,
bewildering and hard to talk about.
bewildering and hard to talk about.
When I started having sex around my mid-teens, I liked it -- I liked it a lot -- but it
seemed weirdly lacking. I'd never figured out how to masturbate, so I couldn't show my
partners how to pleasure me. And although I occasionally suspected that I wanted
something like S&M, I didn't understand how far I wanted to go.
seemed weirdly lacking. I'd never figured out how to masturbate, so I couldn't show my
partners how to pleasure me. And although I occasionally suspected that I wanted
something like S&M, I didn't understand how far I wanted to go.
A couple of teenage boyfriends tied me up... but then they acted solicitous and went
down on me, which didn't send me over the moon (though it was fun). From this, I
concluded that S&M was boring, but the truth is, I hadn't come close to the extremes that
form my preferences. It was years later that I released my need for agony, tears, bruises
and blood.
down on me, which didn't send me over the moon (though it was fun). From this, I
concluded that S&M was boring, but the truth is, I hadn't come close to the extremes that
form my preferences. It was years later that I released my need for agony, tears, bruises
and blood.
* * *
III. Frigid
As I got older and had more sex, my apparent inability to orgasm became the most toxic
secret I had. Most of my closest friends didn't know. For a while I thought I must be
"frigid," and ripped myself apart over the idea that I was a "frigid bitch," even though that
made no sense. It was ridiculous to conceptualize myself that way -- my sexual desire
was undeniable, unavoidable. But I had no other words, no other images or stereotypes,
that described a pre-orgasmic woman.
secret I had. Most of my closest friends didn't know. For a while I thought I must be
"frigid," and ripped myself apart over the idea that I was a "frigid bitch," even though that
made no sense. It was ridiculous to conceptualize myself that way -- my sexual desire
was undeniable, unavoidable. But I had no other words, no other images or stereotypes,
that described a pre-orgasmic woman.
When I did tell my friends, it almost never went well. The best-case scenario was a
conversation with anecdotal fragments: "I knew a girl," one friend advised, "who couldn't
have orgasms. Then one day she was tripping, and having sex, and she fell asleep, and
when she woke up she was having an orgasm."
conversation with anecdotal fragments: "I knew a girl," one friend advised, "who couldn't
have orgasms. Then one day she was tripping, and having sex, and she fell asleep, and
when she woke up she was having an orgasm."
I also found a book on my father's top shelf, written by a guy who said he could give
"any" girl a squirting orgasm. The author claimed that the key was for the woman to be
comfortable. He also claimed that the woman had to not know what he was trying to do.
In fact, the book explicitly recommended that men prevent their girlfriends from reading
it.
"any" girl a squirting orgasm. The author claimed that the key was for the woman to be
comfortable. He also claimed that the woman had to not know what he was trying to do.
In fact, the book explicitly recommended that men prevent their girlfriends from reading
it.
Needless to say, it was hard to extrapolate a Unified Orgasm Theory from these tales.
The only things that seemed clear were that I somehow needed to both "let go" and to
"keep trying." But how?
The only things that seemed clear were that I somehow needed to both "let go" and to
"keep trying." But how?
Every once in a while I made the mistake of telling someone who was convinced they
knew the answer -- which was: sleep with them. When I got drunk with one sexually
experienced male friend and asked for advice, he insisted that if I'd just fuck him I'd be
sure to come. "Anytime you want," he slurred, "I'll give you an orgasm. Guaranteed!"
The fact that I was not attracted to him was, in his view, unimportant.
knew the answer -- which was: sleep with them. When I got drunk with one sexually
experienced male friend and asked for advice, he insisted that if I'd just fuck him I'd be
sure to come. "Anytime you want," he slurred, "I'll give you an orgasm. Guaranteed!"
The fact that I was not attracted to him was, in his view, unimportant.
Worse was my lesbian female friend who declared that I had "issues." She said that I
ought to sleep with a woman. Ultimately, she turned out to be right that the problem was
one of sexual identity, but she was wrong that I was a repressed bisexual. Her campaign
to get me to sleep with her ended in a threesome with a guy I had a crush on. I liked bits
of that evening, but most of it was boring -- if not distasteful. When I tried to talk to my
ought to sleep with a woman. Ultimately, she turned out to be right that the problem was
one of sexual identity, but she was wrong that I was a repressed bisexual. Her campaign
to get me to sleep with her ended in a threesome with a guy I had a crush on. I liked bits
of that evening, but most of it was boring -- if not distasteful. When I tried to talk to my
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