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This document appears to be a printed page from a blog post titled '[theory] Anger, Fear and Pain' sourced from clarissethorn.com, dated February 2, 2012. The text is a first-person essay discussing BDSM dynamics, specifically distinguishing between 'clean' and 'dirty' pain based on physical sensation and psychological processing. The document bears a 'HOUSE_OVERSIGHT' Bates stamp, indicating it was collected as part of a congressional investigation.
People (1)
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| Clarisse Thorn | Author |
Inferred from the URL (clarissethorn.com); author of the blog post discussing BDSM theory.
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| House Oversight Committee |
Identifier in Bates stamp (HOUSE_OVERSIGHT).
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| clarissethorn.com |
Source URL of the printed article.
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Timeline (1 events)
Late 2010
Key Quotes (5)
"I like pain. I like submission. What do these things actually mean, though?"Source
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"The primary words I came up with -- words that I still use a lot in my own head, and that I sometimes try to explain to my partners -- were 'clean' pain and 'dirty' pain."Source
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"I think of some pain as 'clean' because even if it's intense, I usually... like it."Source
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"On the other hand, I think of some pain as 'dirty' because it's... harder to take."Source
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"Electric shocks are extremely dirty."Source
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messed-up sexual expectations.
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This post can be found on the Internet at:
http://clarissethorn.com/blog/2012/02/02/orgasms-arent-my-favorite-part-of-sex-and-my-chastity-urge/
http://clarissethorn.com/blog/2012/02/02/orgasms-arent-my-favorite-part-of-sex-and-my-chastity-urge/
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[theory] Anger, Fear and Pain
I wrote this post in late 2010. The comments on the online version are especially good, with a lot of people sharing their own experience of these emotions in S&M encounters. So if you have an interest in the topic, this is a good post to review online.
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Anger, Fear and Pain
I like pain. I like submission. What do these things actually mean, though? I don't like it when I stub my toe, for example, and there are quite a lot of authoritarian situations I don't like either. My emotional reactions, in particular, can get really complicated. So I need more precise words than "I like pain" and "I like submission."
This is not a new problem, and around the BDSM subculture there are more precise terms that are frequently used. But when I was first exploring BDSM and didn't yet have access to the community, I started coming up with my own vocabulary for what I liked and what I didn't like. The primary words I came up with -- words that I still use a lot in my own head, and that I sometimes try to explain to my partners -- were "clean" pain and "dirty" pain.
I think of some pain as "clean" because even if it's intense, I usually... like it. (For lack of a better word.) This is the kind of pain I fantasize about when I'm really craving BDSM. There are certain places on my body that take pain more cleanly -- my upper arms, most of my back, my thighs. There are certain types of pain that are inherently more clean -- needles come to mind. Wide, deep, blunt bites are good too. Heavy whips made of weighty materials, like suede. Pulling my hair right above the nape of my neck.
On the other hand, I think of some pain as "dirty" because it's... harder to take. I don't think of it as dirty because I see it as scandalous or perverse -- rather, dirty pain is complex and hard to process. I never fantasize about it. Pain where my bones are close to the surface of my skin, like my collarbone, is dirty. Pain on top of scars is dirty. Pinches and small, narrow bites are dirty. Pulling my hair anywhere besides the nape of my neck is dirty. Electric shocks are extremely dirty.
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